today i miss you like hell. i woke up 3 hours

earlier than i usually do and the first thing i think

of is you. i checked my phone and you haven’t

responded to my text from 8pm last night. i

wonder what you were doing and who you were

with. the message wasn’t even about anything.

i try to focus on the one thing that actually matters

in this moment – going back to sleep. but i can’t

do it anymore. i’ve been awake for too long and

my thoughts are now spiraling. what happened

between us? where did we went wrong? how do

we go back to how it was before? is that even

possible? i checked my phone again. obviously

nothing has happened in the 20 seconds since i

last picked it up. i don’t even know what i was

expecting. all i know is that i recognize this

sinking feeling in my chest. i know what is

coming. oh yeah. it is going to hurt.